Hard to blog

hellooooo

Things are happening around here, but honestly, it's been hard to blog when hardly anyone ever reads it. I know that's not supposed to be the reason you blog, and it isn't, but it's hard anyway.

So J has started a new job where he is working around the clock to get the store ready to open. So, he came over the day before it started, gave me a VERY firm reminder, and is checking in as needed. I'm doing pretty well, but I need to confess a misdeed to him, I just don't know how to go about doing it when we only talk by phone for like a minute, and a few scattered texts.

I miss him. I miss his help and companionship, I miss the connections. I miss not having to feel guilty about anything because it can be dealt with right away. I haven't been spinning or had anything major happen.. which has been good. I'm following my rules, not fighting with my mother, eating enough food, dressing like a lady, etc etc. We don't have official rules yet so I follow the ones that were set for me years ago... they're pretty good, solid rules.

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